As someone who has a lot of ideas, but low levels of follow-through, you can understand why most of my work on the internet (if you’ve been here since I started my tumblr in 2010) is editing of others’ work, or reblogging/highlighting the work of others.
Putting together my own work when I know a lot of people might read it or important people might read it, legitimately makes my eyeballs sweat.
Mostly because I hate being criticized. I don’t really know anyone who loves being criticized but I have also never made it to the land of “oh criticism makes you a better creator, it helps you grow blah blah blah”. I am still firmly in the camp of “criticism is a blow to my self esteem”
I think it partially may have to do with the lack of projects in my life that give me pure instant gratification,that build up my good feelings and sense of accomplishment without letdown. So now that I am done with grad school, which was the ultimate 2 year criticism of my abilities, and have free time, I am going to try to throw myself into hobbies that give me the kind of boost I’m looking for.
I am going to try my hardest and push myself to generate something new of mine once a week, whether that’s a craft, or a blog post or a video blog, or finishing a book.
I will try to make this an actual pact with myself, and maybe publishing it here will give me that oompff